(Been a long time. So, Hi!)
Do you ever feel like there is someone who suddenly appears and becomes your new teen spirit?
Lately, I’ve been thinking how people could really influence me on the way of thinking. When I was in Junior High School, I think that was the first time that I got a crush. It was Hayley Williams. Stepping higher on my educational life, when I felt really low, I found Sonia Eryka. When I got into College, when people started to go and I started to do things alone, I found Claradevi Handriatmaja (I already posted about her, tho). Early on October or November last year (I forget), when I really didn’t know where to go, stucked in miserable puzzle of life, lack of spirit animal, I found this young youtuber, Fathia Izzati.
Finding her on my lowest point in my life was such an indescribable feeling. I don’t know how. I don’t know why. I just did.
Probably bcs she is fluent in English, which I adore much bcs I don’t know why it’s kinda rare in Indonesia. Even she got mocked by some ignorant bitch saying she was just trying to be bule-bulean (westerners), but I think it’s brilliant. Hey! We must admit, it’s an international language tho.
Probably bcs she’s also a fan of Arctic Monkeys. It’s like finding a diamond among the stones. My life is completed. I found someone who like to do cover of my favourite band. And that was a biggest invention of the year.
Probably bcs of how indie she is. Yeah. Since I was in JHS, I was influenced by the content of tumblr and stuff. Now, I find someone who has a little part of me.
Probably bcs she’s just badass. The way she thinks. The way she does things. The way she writes poetic stuff. The way she writes on her blog. The way she talks. Her vlogger never gets me bored. It is always entertaining. Plus, she always covers good songs. There is this cover of All I Want by Kodaline which makes me falling in love with her even more.
I think Fathia is spinning around me for now. Even, I make her picture as my wallpaper on my laptop and my phone.
I found her really inspiring. I found her making myself to achieve more and more. I found her making myself a little bit confident with who I am now. I found her really amazing.
Having a spirit animal is sometimes needed. When you don’t know with your life anymore, when you’re just kicking around without having a clue, when life is bit harsh to you, find one. Sometimes, what they do, even she/he is really different from you, is just inspiring and making you see life in a different picture. A brighter version.
Enjoy life. Cherish the moment.
(I’m sorry, Fathia. I screencaptured your pics on instagram and cropped the credit. I really am sorry.)