It has been days since you’re back. Through the screen I always stare and still sending me shivers when I accidentally see your name. Too bad, too far for me to say ‘Hi again!’.
No, we’re not that close. We never be that close.
What if I met you again, I wonder.
Would I still avoid your eyes since they shine so bright till my eyes only see the daylight?
Would I still pretend to be busy with my hair or scrolling the timeline that won’t even get refreshed?
But, I still feel like we need to meet once again;
or twice, perhaps.
Just to make sure that I’m done. That my heart beats in rhythm; not faster nor unusual. That the sparks are off; no stars around.
I liked you, since the day we were placed in the same room;
since the talk we had in that narrow street asking ‘you gonna be okay if i leave?’;
since i found you in the hall reminding me what i want to be in the future.
That is why I need to make sure now if I still like you or just the imagination of you;
if I’m still in love with you or just the feeling of loving you.
I need answers that I won’t even use. But, I want to know. ‘Cause I have to keep you in my nicest box along with the sweet memories that happened before; and not the need of being with you every time I catch you in my core.